My Mini Raya Gath '09

My Mini Raya Gath '09

Bila nak raya rumah sue??? Tu la yang selalu kawan2 tanyer… So this time I said YES, meh la dating rumah… ‘rombongan cik kiah’ diuruskan oleh Liza eeheheh… sehari sebelom tu I call Liza, beb berapa org nak dtg??? Nak beli barang masak nih; liza kata 10 org tak termasuk Debie and Watie… ok set.

So at 3pm my frens arrived… Not all 10 people but its ok, they finished most of the food I served eheheheh… I made some light lunch since I was sure they have more houses to visit after mine so finger food and some deserts suits well….

I masak meehun goreng with egg ribbons, deep fried stuffed tofu, corn pudding with gravy, my brownie with mocha buttercream, satay kajang from haji samuri; Uptown branch. No worries nanti I tulis sume recipe ni in a separate posting.

I manage to get some nice shots of frens and our kids…

I was sooo happy, frens enjoyed all the food.. Kids were happily playing together. I even made Diya wear her dress… soo funny to see how she refuses to wear dresses… she is soooo like me when I was small. I used to remember how much I hated baju kurung and any baju that just hangs on your body…

Thanks for coming to my place… hope to see all of you and more on next occasion...

Mac book!!!!

Oowwww… how I want sooo much a piece of this!!! Boleh jadik giler la siang malam asik fikir nak beli laptop Mac nih!!! Well… kecanggihannyer lebih kepada mereka2 yang banyak menggunakan perisian grafik, maknanyer people with graphic media background la… advertising people, graphic designer, photographer… setakat org mcm I nih tak sesuai kot nak pakai product Mac ni? Berangan mmg la almost everynight but again for basic user like myself is worth it for me to get one? Should I? well as for myself selalunyer I pakai Microsoft windows… dari sekolah la katakan dah diajar pakai windows… normally I would use computers for internet surfing, use word for all my writings, simple picture software for photo editing and most important is my laptop MUST be very light because I carry it with me all the time, in the house mostly eheheeh… outside I would just use my phone but soon when Diya started schooling so I can start to hangout at cafes while waiting for her… I plan to write… specialize on food. Anything that I like or don’t like... so I was thinking to get a brand new macbook… Do I need one?

I am so scared of loosing you baby… The more you grow more I learn to grow with you and more scared I am of loosing you… will I? Ever? Every time I watch the news, read papers or even listened to stories from others; I became more scared of the world that you are living in… every time you get sick or not well... I always blame myself, what I did or didn’t do... did I forgot to do this or that? Every time you won’t behave well... I will think again what did I do wrong? Did I not teach you right?

Last night you went down the stairs in the middle of the night all by yourself while all I was sleeping; maybe you were sleepwalking or just didn’t notice I was right beside you all the time and started to look around for me till you went to the kitchen by yourself! I thought I had lost you when I wake up hearing a baby’s cry far downstairs and you weren’t beside me. I really thought I had lost you!

Learning something new…

This is what I have been learning lately. Something new added to my hobby, now I can write and have nice pictures on my writings too… so I plan to learn more on photography after this and hopefully one day I can afford to have a bigger nicer camera for my new thing eheheh…

I can never think of my self to learn photo editing or even take nice pictures but now, thanx to technology now I can learn faster way by having online tutorials… thanx to my dear fren Debbie and OD for guiding me sooo much!

I am sooooo HAPPY!

Me

Me

Lately I have been thinking a lot…. Something is missing… I don’t know… I worry on so many things... I feel i'm doing well in my business but I feel ader yg tak cukup lagi… I bake a lot these days, nice n more of new things but… there is always a BUT… then I see myself in the mirror… hmmm… my dressing I feel ok dah... I LOVE to wear short dress with tights now and I think they are quite fashion and suits me yg ader anak nih eheheheh… but… masih ader yg tak kena… i got myself a hair cut also just in case i think my appearence yg tak kena, the 'but' is still there... almost everything I akan rasa ader yg tak kena... aper yer? Maybe I worry too much bout my business? Or Diya doesn’t get enough of my attention? I don’t cook proper food? I never complete my house chores? I don’t know…

The other day I saw my SAHM fren got an interview with TV3 on a ‘carik duit lebih’ topic and i’m sooooo amazed how she can handle her home, family and online business so smoothly? Whats her secret? But I know shes a very hardworking person since school.

Maybe I feel I’m not successful enough? I mean in every ways? I can’t be perfect, can I? so much more for me to learn things… so many things for me to venture in yet so limited time I have… getting myself organized is the most important thing perhaps…

I still cant figure out what is the 'BUT'