Been Awhile

hey uolls...

been soooo ong since i last post here... i cant even remember my username and password to log in!!! tad bad eh??? i wonder wats keeping e bz till i have long forgotten bout my writing? i have sooo much to tell and i dont know where to start... i just wanna start writing again especially bout all da things i eat and cook..

i think i remember i used to write alot about my kiddo, my cooking, my food photography passion.. but having my cakes all da time keeps me away from my 'laptop'!!! everything is done thru smartfones and tabs these days.. senang, snap gamba.. bukak apps edit a bit here and there and terus upload.. Facebook of coz, where else! hhahahahaa...

so... i shall write again.. about everything..

missing all of you...

Trying out...

Hey, im trying out dis new ipad blogging tool.. Kinda cool and easy for me to blog... Oh, how much i miss blogging.. Soooo much.. Even my cake stuffs arent updated.. I better work my ass lah.. Let me try attach a picture here..








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I should...

Hey there..

Its almost 1am here and I am still not sleeping..too hungry? Too tired? Too worry? Only God knows.. Took my medication like always while munching this bread with corn cream (yeah too sweet, should have munched on plain biscuits instead..sighss), I am writing here determined to get my postings regular again!

Must be the ‘Sambal Belacan’ I had earlier for dinner; been sneezing non stop, itchy nose and throat too! Coughing is surely from all the cold drinks I have been having lately, also with all those fast food!!! Oh dear.. I must take care more of my food consumption lah..

Neways.. I have so many things in mind right now, maybe this is one of the reason I'm still not sleeping at this hour too! Cake orders are filling my calendar (ya, I know.. Shouldn't complain so much, bz is good, bz is money!), netting cups, handmade fondant roses, googling cartoon pics for my mini flags etc... I am suppose to get half done by tonight but its too late now and I should sleep early cause I need to start my day early..

Thinking of what and where I should go and do tomorrow makes me even more tired... I know I should focus more on my business here, but lately too much distraction lah.. With my mom being sick, me travelling back and forth, entertaining mostly everyone else till I forgot what I want and need.

Well, at least with all these cake orders, I now know I'm able go get that iPad cover with stylus pen I wanted so much!

Ps: i'll post the pic here when i got them yah! hihi..

Superwoman?

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Been running around like headless chicken today! Back and forth from my place to mom’s place, cook at my place and later at mom’s .. Came back to my place and cook again.. Oh dear..

It all started when my pumpkin got sick few weeks back, high fever and bad cough until we brought her to see 3 different child specialist and then she got better.. The nasty bug caught myself and I was down for a week after.. Couldn't do much so my mom and her maid came to help with my cakes.. Few days after I was all better and then my mom got sick! 5 days and she finally got admitted at the hospital due to the fever and kidney reading not so good! Since then I have been traveling from Damansara to  the hospital in Kg Baru for few days until mom got discharged, then from Damansara to Gombak for another few days..

I finally took one day rest from traveling and rest at home until the next day mom’s maid called telling she's down with fever! Sounded sooo weak over the phone .... Early morning send kiddo to school, rush back home to cook while I have my breakfast standing in the kitchen! Thank God for 3in1 coffee mix!!! Pickup kiddo and straight away drive to Gombak. There I cook dinner as well for both of them before I rush back to my place and fix our dinner. Dropped by the grocery store to get some things for mom’s lunch tomorrow too.. Prepared everything and keep in the chiller so I can just start my day early and cook everything tomorrow..

Tomorrow I am going to make singgang kerang serve with punded garlic and chilli soy sauce, kangkung goreng belacan and ayam masak kicap kenduri style!! If that what it takes to make my mom eat, so I will cook everything, all the way..

My day didn't stop there, I still have a small set of cupcakes to finish up for tomorrow’s pickup and prepare my cream, choc fudge sauce for Friday’s pickup! Everything was done at about 11pm and I finally get to sleep and rest..

Masyaallah.. Where did all those energy came from? God is Great! Like magic when I was able to do all those this whole day.. Yeah He is testing me but at the same time He is there to help me.. Always..

My Gift To You

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I think too much recently.. Been a year plus since I finished my treatment and never miss any of my regular checkup.. Alhamdulillah, semuanya selamat, semuanya sihat.. Looking good all the way.. I am more active in my bakings, stronger and feeling a lot better. Sampai kan busy sangat tak dapat nak ber-blogging sangat lately.. Ya ya I know I should be consistent in my writing if I really want to learn to write.. Am at my best now to regularly write..

Sementara I am having a good life now, tak semua orang bernasib baik like myself.. A dear friend of mine; my only cancer friend that has always been there for me especially during my chemo treatment is having relapse on her cancer after 6 beautiful and wonderful years.. The news breaks me.. I kept on thinking what if that happens to me? And then I realized I have nothing for Diya if I die! She is only 4 years old now and will be 10 years old in 6 years, I don't think she will remember me much if I'm not around by that time. I never write, collect, keep anything for her..

I talked to my BFF bout this and she came with the idea of me writing a recipe book for Diya. All my daily cooking, how she would love her food to be, all the dos and don'ts in her daily meal etc. So I will write to her as if I'm teaching her to cook. I will write manually so the book will be a personal one from me to her. I will paste cutouts of any favorite label I always use from a normal all purpose flour to the cream I use into all my sauces! This will also be in my ‘Bucket List’ to do things before I die.. I will jot down all the passwords and user name for all the websites that I have so one day she can read herself  all the stories I always upload on the net, from Facebook statuses, tweets, blog postings etc..

I love you darling Diya..

I Miss You

Been soooo long since i last wrote here.. About a year or so? I really do miss writing here especially bout my cooking and of coz, Diya... So today i have decided not to wait anymore, or else i will never continue to write.. I think i will just continue writing as usual and make one long entry on what i have missed to write the past year.. Life has been soooo busy for me since i completed my cancer treatment, Alhamdulillah i am now doing well and trying to get back on track especially business wise.. I have loads of pictures of Diya and stories on how much she has grown up, also pictures of food and also my cakes..

Diya has started school, learning alot and has improved alot on her vocab, also speach skills.. As for myself, started my diploma in cake baking and decorating at ICCA, the best cake school intown! Although i only attend sunday classes, still i am very occupied with cake orders, Diya and her school etc... But yeah i know, all of that is not to be a reason for me to stop writing right??? Will definitely try my best to write again..

For all my blogger frens, pls dont ever give up on me.. Insyaallah will visit all of you very much soon..

Love uolls..

Me Time

Finally sometime for me to write.. Been quite awhile since i last post here.. Soooo many pending stories to tell.. But myself been occupied with my cakes lately.. Many new flavors, design and new setty.. Lucky me got a superb gift for me to bring around for work and leisure.. Did i tell uolls i now have my own iPad2??? hihihihihi... Superb gift yeah?? So no more excuses lah not to write kan? Haha..

Here i am in the car waiting while running some errands lah on a Sunday, with my normal starbucks drinks (where else kan...), egg mayo sandwich; eh they now serve egg mayo sandwiches tau, chocolate frapuccino and donut for Diya, with my iPad pre-downloaded daily newspaper whice dah seminggu i tak sempat baca any of them, pre-downloaded Female magazine and my Evernote application so i can be on the go anytime anyday anywhere... Which reminds me, loads of pending postings lah, mostly half way drafted but i still have everything in mind lah.

Did i tell uolls that iPad2 is superbly cool??? A perfect gadget lah for anyone whos studying, or working or a fulltime mom like me! I have many and many recipe applications on mine, magazines, i keep my songs, sticky notes as reminder, my social networking stuffs like Facebook and Twitter etc.. Although i didnt get the ones with 3g coz i feel i dont need to since i have my Berry all the time.. What i do is, i wld just use Evernote to write or keep my photos, quotations, cake projects etc n email to myself everytime, later will fetch those emails on my laptop or my Berry and save a copy instead of me using a cable to snyc everything.. Leceh n sometimes i lost the files or get them duplicated tau. I only snyc my contacts n calender appoinments so i have backup on my iPad, which mostly i have everything on my fone lah.. Daily i will push email to my ipad so i can read them later and reply while my kiddo goes to school and i normally would lepak at any cafe while waiting for her.. No longer need to carry my heavy Mac Book like i usually do. IPad2 is sooooo much lighter than the first one. And best of all i never have to fight with Diya lagi over an iPad hahahahhaahah... I have all my stuff in mine and PRIVACY!!!! Hihihi... I can snap pictures, or just download them from my website of Facebook for me to attach on evernote or my email. I mostly work on quotations which includes picture samples of my designs and such so i need to have the pictures so i wont get mixed up among all my clients coz different quotations for each individual. Yang paling best is my iPad is WHITE!!!!!! Blardy cute lah! Smart cover? Tempted but not yet, too expensive lah beb.. I pakai a black leather punya better lahh tak cepat kotor coz i have macam- macam lah in my handbag haha.. So now i carry 2 iPads lah all the time with me one for myself and another is Diya's; better than i have to carry laptop lah.. LOVE IT!!! Alahai sue ni kalau talk bout my gadgets sampai bila pun tak habis lah..

So lepas ni lebih semangat lah nak blogging.. Superb gift!!! Many thanx Hon..

Mac And Cheese

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This is one of the request I got from my high school senior.. Originality recipe ni I dapat  from my good friend Nini Harneeza, zaman Uni dulu.. All these while I have been trying sooo many recipes of mac&cheese and finally I found one yang sedap, senang dimasak dan under budget! The 1st time I intro this home made mac&cheese Diya terus suka sampai hari-hari lah I kena buat kan dia until today!

Things that you need:

A small bowl of elbow macaroni
2 tbsp of butter (I always use salted butter)
2 tbsp of multipurpose flour
2 cups of double cream milk*
cheddar cheese*
salt and pepper to taste

How To Prepare:

Melt butter and flour in a non stick pan until well combine add in milk. Again stir until everything are well mixed. Add in elbow pasta (pre-boiled and cooked) keep stirring and add in the cheese. Mix until cheese melts and remove from heat. Don't forget to add in seasoning; salt and pepper to taste. Serve warm!

Macam Maner Nak Pilih Cili Kering

Satu lagi petua I nak bagi kat sini ialah bagaimana memilih cili untuk dikisar dan digunakan dalam masakan seharian. Cili kering ni ader banyak jenis, Ader yang sederhana pedas, sangat pedas atau ader juga yang tak pedas langsung. Oleh itu ketika memilih tu harus lah mengikut cita rasa sendiri.

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Bagi contoh cili diatas ini ialah jenis yang pedas! Warnanya merah menyala, Lurus dan tidak bertangkai. Kalau diikutkan pengalaman I memasak jenis ini adalah jenis yang paling pedas. So watch out!! Cili jenis ini mudah didapati di pasaraya terkenal dan besar seperti Giant dan Tesco.

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Untuk contoh diatas ini pulak dikatakan jenis yang kurang pedas. Rupanya berkedut dan kecut, merah gelap sikit dan pendek-pendek biasanya. Jenis yang ni pada I kurang pedas. Cili ini boleh didapati dipasaraya besar seperti Tesco dan Giant juga dipasar-pasar siang atau malam. Tetapi sejak I menjalani rawatan kimoterapi, I memang dah tak boleh nak makan makanan yang pedas-pedas walau pun sedikit. Biasalah, tekak Melayu ni mesti nak lauk bersambal kan? Kalau tak pakai cili kisar nanti tak sedap pulak. Sehinggalah suatu hari mak I terjumpa jenis cili kering yang tak pedas langsung ini.

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Ini lah contoh cili yang langsung tak pedas pada tekak I lah. Senang nak diguna buat sambal sebab kalau I buat sambal I suka guna banyak cili supaya dapat lebih kuah sambal tapi kalau cili kisar tu pedas sangat nanti tak tahan pulak pedas kan? jadi I rasa cili ni lah yang terbaik for me and my family. Cili ini menurut dari mak I berasal dari Terengganu, tetapi masih boleh didapati disesetengah pasaraya seperti pasaraya NSK dan beberapa buah kedai borong barangan kering dikawasan selayang dan gombak.

Cara membuat cili kisar:

Potong dan hiris cili kering nipis-nipis dibuang bijinya sekali. Cuci sehingga air rendaman cili menjadi jernih dan rebus sehingga cili menjadi lembut. Tapis dan cuci lagi sehingga air menjadi jernih lagi dan masukkan kedalam blender. Masukkan separa penuh air masak, seulas bawang putih, satu sudu besar minyak masak, sedikit garam dan cuka(kalau suka lah dan mahu tahan lebih lama). Kisar sehingga hancur dan menjadi pes yang sempurna. simpan didalam peti sejuk untuk digunakan pada bila-bila masa. Biasanya I akan buat cili kisar ni untuk simpanan dalam seminggu dua supaya senang untuk memasak. Selain daripada cili kisar I juga buat bawang putih kisar, bawang merah kisar. Untuk topic itu I akan letak di posting yang berlainan..

How To Choose good Lady Finger

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Ha.... Mesti ramai tak tau kan macam maner kita nak pilih bendi or lady finger yang crunchy dan tak tua kat pasar or super market??? Not just to choose by color and size sebab sometimes they are small in size but its already old and some other times they are dark green in color yet they are the good ones and crunchy! So how do I choose my lady finger? Just get a few and try to snap the tips! If it breaks easily meaning they are good and fresh to cook!!!! Remember, just a super small part of the tips tau, takkan nak makan bendi yang patah-patah hujungnya kan? Mesti you all wonder maner lah sue dapat petua-petua macam nih kan? Kadang-kadang tu bunyik jer dah macam merepek. I got this one from my mother in-law heheheh.. I have tried, so why not all of you try too?

Good Luck!

Petua Siang Sayur Supaya Manis

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Satu lagi petua yang berkaitan ngan sayur! Well, this time I got this petua from a lady yang dulu bekerja sebagai pembantu rumah at my house. This lady is a mother to my sister's friend and we had her to stay with us for a while until my mom got us a permanent pembantu rumah. yeah, dulu kita panggil pembantu rumah because they are locals and citizens, unlike these days where people prefers to use foreigners maid to help with house chores.

Neways, we called her "Bonda" which means mom or mother. I can remember one day I sat beside her while she cooks lunch and I notice the way she cut her vegetables and I asked why? What she did was, instead of using the knives or nowadays people uses kitchen scissors; she simply use her hands to 'pluck' the leaves from the stem, or just break into small pieces with crunchier type of vegetable. Sebagai contoh lah, sayur kangkung.. Biasanyer kita siang sayur pakai pisau, tapi Bonda petik-petik daun kangkung tu bersama sebahagian kecil tangkainya dengan hanya menggunakan tangan. Lepas tu kalau dia siang kacang panjang or kacang buncis pun dia gunakan teknik yang sama, petik-petik to smaller pieces. Bila I tanyer; Bonda, kenapa buat sayur tu macam tu and she answered... Barulah sayur ni manis bila kita masak nanti.. So, sampai lah sekarang nih, kalau I masak sayur, bila nak siang sayur tu I will just use my hands..

Do try this out babes..

New Segmant?

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I was talking to a dear friend today over breakfast and came up with an idea to improve my website. The idea is to have more of my home cooking recipes. Many friends actually came to visit my web here to look for recipes and tips. And so I thought, yeah why not? Upon many recipes of my own friends and readers can also request for recipes that they need. Since many of them are full-time working and doesn't have much time to search or Google, so why not I do for them kan? If I don't have the recipe from my family I can always Google and do research for them.

On top of that, I think I want to add in a new segment that is "PETUA" where I can share many tips on cooking, groceries shopping, termasuk lah macam maner nak pilih ikan kat pasar ker haha! This may sound funny but believe me, I do have friends calling me; sue, macam maner nak pilih kangkung yang elok kat pasar? Since now this is how my life is and over the years I have gained more and more experience in being a full-time mom, why not I share my tips with all of you out there.. Once a friend call me up crying because she now had to quit her job, become a full-time mom and just couldn't handle everything at once. " Sue, macam maner you boleh buat kerja rumah, cook almost complete meal everyday, shop groceries, drive around, bake and sell cakes WITH Diya hanging on to you all the time??? Im even scared to drive pegi kedai depan tu tu get simple things!!! How you manage? Whats your secret?" (bukan masuk bakul dan angkat sendiri yer.. hehe). Bila I fikir balik, ye lah kan? I managed!!! Not perfect but I am able to handle it Alhamdulillah.

So, I think this is good for me to write here.. Share more things and why not make more friends kan? So, I shall have a form here too for any of you to email me directly and ask questions, selagi I boleh tolong, I will Insyaallah.. Email me on any inquiries you have in mind lah.. Err.. Decent ones ek heheheheh... So jangan lupa to checkout the tabs I have and new category on the side bar..

Broccoli Oyster Sauce With Egg Tofu Mumy

Ha, satu lagi recipe sayur yang I selalu masak to match with my other home cook meal. Cepat, senang and SEDAP! I think I have posted something similar to his in my earlier posting, but it is okay, some fresh touch wouldn't harm lah kan...

The things you need:

Egg tofu in tubes slice them but not to thin because we are going to fry them.
Sayur broccoli dalam a bunch ker.. You can opt for other vegetable also but I love non- bitter ones.
Garlic say a few cloves
A few table spoon of oyster sauce
A table spoon of corn flour( to be mix with water)
Half cup water
Seasonings: Salt and pepper

How To Cook:

Fry the egg tofu in a stir fry pan, no need to deep fry. Just until they get slightly brownish. Can we skip this part? I suggest not because egg tofu is very soft and delicate; they will definitely put a side. Clean the broccoli and cut them as how you like. You can also add in fish ball or fish cake if you want to. Bruise the garlic and start to fry them. Add in the oyster sauce and the fried tofu, a little water for gravy. Add in the broccoli cut into small pieces, seasonings and stir a little longer. Not to long cause you wouldn't want mushy vegetable right? Lastly, remove from heat and add in the corn flour water mixture. Stir until thick and serve hot with any other dishes. It can match almost all dishes although I don't agree to have this with any kuah masak lemak hehehe..

Talking Diya

Hari ni cuaca sejak pagi mendung jer, sebelah petang nyer pulak hujan. Orang kata kalau hujan macam ni biasanyer 'Hujan Rahmat' yang membawa maksud rezeki bakal mendatang. Insyaallah.. Its a fine and quiet Sunday morning today only me and Diya. I had and early day while Diya is still sleeping, did some minor cleaning up downstairs and later back to bed hehehe.. Not very much a while Diya wakes up and ask for her 'my pad' (well.. what else is new) and started browsing her favorite clips on you-tube. A little tired and I fell asleep beside her. She later woke me up and say "Mie, nak ashi.. egg.. fish.." And terus my mata terbeliak sekejap bila perasan eh, Diya dah boleh cakap lah! She can tell me what she wants for lunch or what she wants to eat! Macam bermimpi lah! She is already going to be 4 years old in September and finally I can hear her talk. Walaupun tak sempurna lagi tapi cukup lah sekadar I'm the mother paham aper yang dia nak. Then bila I fikir balik, a'ah la semalam pun during dinner she told me she wants soup! And sometimes she will tell me she wants pizza (which actually she meant pau kacang merah). Bila dia nak minum she now say "Mie, haus.." Instead of she used to shout for ayer! Ayer! ayer! Everytime she wants to drink. plus minus everything; Diya can actually talk now! Alhamdulillah.. Memang Diya is a bit late compare to other kids but she has improve alot. A whole lot! I am very proud of my kid here. Satu perasaan yang tak boleh nak describe. Hati tu rasa besar sangat bila Diya panggil, mintak nak makan nasi and I made her ikan masak kicap and she really makan nasi tu. Masa menyuapkan dia makan with my own hands tu rasa terharu sangat. Walau macm maner lapar myself sekali pun I can still wait and suap dia makan dulu untill she is done with her food.

I can remember last time masa I had to go through chemo and I was weak, my mom's maid had to suap diya makan, mandi and pakai kan baju tuk Diya and I got jelous! sometimes she even sleeps with her.. I cried in the room, but I know I had to let go Diya for a while, at least until I am strong enough to handle her again.. The moment I have more energy I will do all the things myself, I’ll bathe her, comb her hair, feed her and even play with her abit here and there. To think again, she was my strength when I was weak. I stayed strong for her.. Semua ni berlaku tanpa myself sedari.. Tak perasan langsung Diya is actually my strength yang datang dari maner pun I tak tau.. Alhamdulillah, dan I will always stay strong for her Insyaallah.

Ikan Cencaru Masak Tauchu Mumy

Haaaaaa... Hari ni saya masak lauk kegemaran rumah ni 'Ikan Cencaru Masak Tauchu'   Which I have been learning it for quite sometime! Finally I did the 'sedap version' kahkahkah!!! This version is from my dear friend Kamisah who cooks a lot of all the kampung dishes. I always think cooking traditional Malay dishes are messy and very difficult to make but the fact is it isn't that difficult lah... Malay always say ; alar campak-campak jer.. Hihi.. So here it goes..

Things That you need:

Ikan cencaru yang dibuang jaket dan dibersihkan sepenuhnya. I always like the smaller size of fish so i can have seekor on my own plate haha..

Bawang putih(seulas), bawang kecik/merah(dua ulas), halia(dalam seinchi) dan cili hijau (dalam dua biji). Cuci dan hiris kesemua bahan ini kecuali cili hijau cukup sekadar dibelah dia sebagai perhiasan.

Sedikit timun atau kacang panjang sebagai sayur tambahan dalam kuah tauchu itu.

Satu paket kecik Tauchu masin atau dalam dua sudu besar; dilecek atau ditmbuk atau digunakan terus dari paket mengikut cita rasa masing-masing lah.

Sedikit air, serbuk lada sulah dan garam sebagai perasa serta serbuk kunyit untuk menggoreng ikan.

Cara memasak:

Ikan dibersihkan, digaul dengan sedikit garam dan kunyit dan digoreng sehingga garing mengikut cita rasa sendiri. Toskan dan ketepikan.

Panaskan minyak sedikit didalam kuali, tumis bahan hirisan termasuk cili hijau, tumis sehingga naik bau kemudian masukkan tauchu. Kacau hingga masak baru masukkan air. Tunggu mendididh, masukkan garam sedikit(hati-hati kerana tauchu sudah masin), lada sulah secukup rasa dan sayuran tadi. Setelah semua masak curahkan kuah tauchu ini keatas ikan yang telah siap digoreng, hidang kan sementara masih panas.

Lactose Intolerant and Dairy Overdose?

Oh dear... My Diya is not well.. Mula-mula sekali-dua jer dia cirit, tapi lama-lama makin kerap pulak. Sampai sehari 5 pampers berganti. Baru tukar satu dah kena ganti baru lagi sekali. I thought nak tunggu sehari dulu baru bawak pegi klinik pakar kanak-kanak kat depan tu tapi tak sampai hati pulak lah bila tengok Diya cirit-birit macam tu, so malam tu we went to see the doctor and get her checked.

I explained to the doctor that on Saturday Diya had pizza which that was her 1st pizza. We had the Cheesy Volcano Pizza cause we thought that would be FUN for Diya. Then the next day Diya asked for the same thing; pizza again! And so we went.. Earlier the day Diya had mushroom soup, cereal with milk for lunch and pizza for dinner. Later she had vanilla ice cream for desert. And everything started that midnight. One after another until myself pun penat nak bangun tengah malam lagi. Sebab terlalu kerap kena cuci Diay's private part tu naik rashes. Very red and I'm sure very painful lah. Diya has eczema and too much water will dehydrate her skin and trigger rashes, her body tempreture pun naik jugak sikit. I was worried quite much until I get to see the doctor. After the checkup doctor concluded that Diya has Lactose Intolerant and Dairy Overdose. she prescribed Diya with Probiotix from Bio-Life, ORS for her diarrhea and some salt water for energy, also flu and fever syrup for her runny nose and body temperature. Doctor told me not to worry because Diya is not dehydrated. She is very active playing and should be ok in a couple of days. I teringat masa kecik dulu Diya got admitted to the hospital due to the same reason only that time she was vomiting quite much, in fact the whole night! 3 days admitted with full drips. I wrote about this in my previous posting.

Today is her fourth day having diarrhea but she is a lot better now. Kurang sikit cirit-birit, gap from one another pun dah makin jarak. She has more energy, selera makan pun makin baik and dia lebih ceria main her toys! Alhamdulillah.. Bersyukur sangat. Lega jugak myself tak payah bangun tengah malam lagi hehehe... Lega betul rasanya dapat main ngan Diya like she always do.. Moga Allah panjangkan umur both myself and her so that she will grow to be anak yang solehah and myself pulak sihat nak membesarkan dia. Insyaallah..

Earning Enough?

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While I was sipping my hot drink here at the coffee shop I notice two hardworking men trying to earn a living by washing cars! They only have an old bicycle with two pails attach to the side, few kain buruk and some bottles which I assume they are the soap for washing the car.. And then I think.. Org kerja mcm tu pun boleh carik makan... Semua nampak cukup. Badan sihat, hidup sederhana, boleh makan boleh hidup kat tengah kota lagi... Damansara tau! Nasi kat sini lauk ayam kecik satu pun dah easily rm6, belom masuk air lagi tu... Macam maner org tu boleh hidup hanya dengan basuh kereta? Or maybe dia ader kerja- kerja lain jugak macam potong rumput ker, jual barang terpakai ker, who knows kan but still the earning tu banyak maner lah sangat kan? Applying to myself, selalu fikir I don't have 'enough'.. Tak cukup baju lah, makan lah, gadget lah etc... Ader jer benda yg tak mencukupkan tu. And almost everyday I think of this and that.. Nak ni nak tu.. Etc.. Tapi bila tengok orang tu rajin usaha sampai angkut baldi sana sini, makes me feel so small.. I have almost everything and still complaining.. Huhuhuh...

I just have to work harder.. I have to bersyukur to what I have. Stop complaining and be happy always. Insyaallah.. Walau aper pun ujian Tuhan for me I will face them with all my might! moga Tuhan permudahkan urusanku dan bantu aku mengharungi dugaan-Nya..

J.Co Today

Hai all... Makin lama I rasa macam I make dis blog as my diary pulak.. Well.. Maybe ader yang kat luar tu yang suka baca my life journal, so why not kan?

Pagi ni I decided to hang out at J.Co for breakfast while waitng for my kiddo to habis sekolah.. Plus I need to get some things from the hypermarket too.. Actually this place is not bad lah.. Sofa is comfortable, almost semua table dia setty guna sofa so i lebih selesa nak pilih any spot to sit. Parking pun senang and FREE, another bonus point for the place! I order their tuna club donut and hot tea. Makan satu tak cukup lah plak memandangkan badan I dah double size now ahhahaha... So I ordered another piece haha.. Segan betul..

Agaknyer pagi- pagi mamat yang kerja tu blur kot.. Macam tak paham aper kita cakap pun ye jugak. Bila I nak tambah order pun muka blur.. Tanyer aper set breakfast pun susahnyer lah dia nak explain.. Well.. Menu wise tak lah variety sangat kat sini, semua donut base which I think they should improvise sikit tambah menu simple like small nasi lemak set ke for breakfast sahaja, or maybe donut toast with scramble egg and sausage ker.. Dah nama pun kedai kat Malaysia kan, kena lah ikut selera Malaysia hahahah... Drinks quite pricy lebih kurang starbucks jugak for their coffee and such but I tak tengok pada itu sahaja lah, the place is comfy, wifi laju, easy parking so conclude all that I rasa I will definitely come back here again.. Or maybe mark this place as my favorite place to hangout too.

So what I did today was trying to upload my cake pictures to my cake website tapi Masyaallah, banyak nyer limitation iPad nih.. I cant attach any picture kalau I guna email through the website, I tak boleh upload picture to my fan page it will directly go to my personal facebook. Kalau I nak upload via email sahaja for my fan page but again the email setting takder attachment kalau I guna the official website. Meaning I kena set kan my email account to this iPad and email from there, another but is iPad ni sharing and email is super confidential lah huhuhuh...


Ipad ooohhhh iPad! Tapi takper lah so now I know I will just the iPad to write and surf, later balik rumah baru settlekan all the work yang I dah buat on the Ipad.. Atleast I tak payah nak carry my bulky laptop lagi kan.. Plus iPad is very stylish hehehehe.

New Hijab Style?

Satu topic yang I'm very excited nak cerita.. The other day I was having light breakfast with my mom circle friend at Ikano. while we were chatting I think I saw another friend of mine; long lost friend from school time paying for her food at the counter. Although we never met each other for so long but we always keep in touch through Facebook and BBM in our Blackberries! and so I think why not I BBM her and check whether its really her or not, cause I so don't wanna say hello to the wrong person in the mall hehehe.. Few seconds later she replied; YES we are in the same place having our makan hehehe.. I finished my food and quickly went to her table. My God!!! Makhluk Allah yang paling cantik I pernah tengok lah.. Cantik nya dia ni, ber Hijab Arab style, manis baju kurung jubah style, light daily makeup MasyaAllah cantik nyer.. Yeah she is now a muslimah duta for certain Hijab brands and also models a lot of muslimah dressings, make up brands and many more..

And there we go, chit and chat bout her career and all.. What interests me was her hijab style. I wonder always everytime I see her pictures on Facebook or magazines; macam maner dia lilit tudung dia ek? And so she did a short demo for us! Oh, dear... Simplenyer!!! I always fikir alahai lecehnyer nak belit-belit tudung mcm tu! Only few pins does the trick! She even tip us on where to get nice shawls, inner shawls, even makeup tips! Teruja nyer I masa tu heheheh... That night I sleep thinking ish tak sabar lah nak pakai tudung macam tu..

So the next day, I went to visit the boutiques, wow! Happy I was to see many shades for the inner although tak banyak shawl collection there. I spent a bit on shawl inners and I took one shawl for me to try.. The day after that I went to another boutique in Shah Alam; Hajra and there I got myself few more shawls! Fancy ones too! Am very very happy with my new look. I plan to stick to this image and of course get more shawls from Hajra!

I Don't Want To Work In An Office Anymore

picture is from source of Google

I have my laptop on my lap and typing these.. I really do never want to work in an office ever again. I just realize today that I have made the right decision ever and I never want to go back to my old life ever again. Hari ni awal pagi I went visiting one of my Mom Circle Friend whom I met in a playgroup that send Diya on weekends. She recently was diagnosed with cervical cancer and at the moment is on traditional herbal treatment for her cancer. She told me that to undergo surgery is not an option for her nor chemo and radiation cause of her high blood pressure and a weak heart. So the only option for her is to go for traditional medicine. She has a 4 years old daughter, same age as my Diya which saddens me more. From the visit I realize how lucky I am to have undergo surgery and all treatment for my cancer safely and successfully. I am now slowly getting back my life and how I use to be before. I am able to wear nice hijab with fashionable clothes, send Diya to school just like other normal parents. when I saw her there weak and not able to do much; I have all my memories freshen up and all the scary thoughts came back to mind. Yes I am scared, worry still and easily get upset to see others suffering.

Then suddenly I just thought; I never want to work in an office ever again. I never want to leave my Diya even just for work. I feel that I never have the courage, energy and strength to go back to that world. I don't care perceptions from family and friends, I just want to do what I want. I will try my best to maintain my mini baking business and help to finance the family as much as I can. If others can success.. So why not me right? Anak orang jual nasi lemak dan kuih pun boleh sampai masuk University kan??? I feel now money is not everything anymore. Yes no doubt it is important but its just not everything anymore.. Well.. At least in my list they aren't. I appreciate health more nowadays. Bila sakit aper pun kita tak boleh nak buat lagi. Allah tu bila nak amik kita anytime Dia boleh amik. Jiran belakang rumah my mom sihat walafiat, selalu come by visit and hantar kuih but suddenly last week she had a stroke, lumpuh sebelah badan and darah beku masuk ke her brain. Went for surgery the next day, coma and passed away the day after. Before this memang takder mengeluh sakit aper pun, takder kencing manis ke, darah tinggi ker aper pun takder. Just one day kena stroke.. Allahhuakhbar!

Another different story; yesterday I had lunch with some good friends of mine, career woman they are.Looking at them sitting in the fancy restaurant made me miss my office career life too.. Wear fancy clothes, bergaya betul ngan accessories, nice handbags and shoes.. Jauh beza ngan my dressing with them (although lately I dah pakai new hijab style; will story all of you in a different posting lah) but still I stylo jugak la hehe.. I dah fikir masak-masak, this life is the best for me. Home mom to Diya with a home base career, i also want to learn to write for myself. I want to cook for family, participate in all Diya's activity especially her school. I want to be there for her all the time. I make her my life now. and also maybe I want to start reading too. Yes these are the things that I want.

Please God, let me have all these. I pray hard to have all these..