Been Awhile

hey uolls...

been soooo ong since i last post here... i cant even remember my username and password to log in!!! tad bad eh??? i wonder wats keeping e bz till i have long forgotten bout my writing? i have sooo much to tell and i dont know where to start... i just wanna start writing again especially bout all da things i eat and cook..

i think i remember i used to write alot about my kiddo, my cooking, my food photography passion.. but having my cakes all da time keeps me away from my 'laptop'!!! everything is done thru smartfones and tabs these days.. senang, snap gamba.. bukak apps edit a bit here and there and terus upload.. Facebook of coz, where else! hhahahahaa...

so... i shall write again.. about everything..

missing all of you...

My Gift To You

 Picture is from source of google

I think too much recently.. Been a year plus since I finished my treatment and never miss any of my regular checkup.. Alhamdulillah, semuanya selamat, semuanya sihat.. Looking good all the way.. I am more active in my bakings, stronger and feeling a lot better. Sampai kan busy sangat tak dapat nak ber-blogging sangat lately.. Ya ya I know I should be consistent in my writing if I really want to learn to write.. Am at my best now to regularly write..

Sementara I am having a good life now, tak semua orang bernasib baik like myself.. A dear friend of mine; my only cancer friend that has always been there for me especially during my chemo treatment is having relapse on her cancer after 6 beautiful and wonderful years.. The news breaks me.. I kept on thinking what if that happens to me? And then I realized I have nothing for Diya if I die! She is only 4 years old now and will be 10 years old in 6 years, I don't think she will remember me much if I'm not around by that time. I never write, collect, keep anything for her..

I talked to my BFF bout this and she came with the idea of me writing a recipe book for Diya. All my daily cooking, how she would love her food to be, all the dos and don'ts in her daily meal etc. So I will write to her as if I'm teaching her to cook. I will write manually so the book will be a personal one from me to her. I will paste cutouts of any favorite label I always use from a normal all purpose flour to the cream I use into all my sauces! This will also be in my ‘Bucket List’ to do things before I die.. I will jot down all the passwords and user name for all the websites that I have so one day she can read herself  all the stories I always upload on the net, from Facebook statuses, tweets, blog postings etc..

I love you darling Diya..

Talking Diya

Hari ni cuaca sejak pagi mendung jer, sebelah petang nyer pulak hujan. Orang kata kalau hujan macam ni biasanyer 'Hujan Rahmat' yang membawa maksud rezeki bakal mendatang. Insyaallah.. Its a fine and quiet Sunday morning today only me and Diya. I had and early day while Diya is still sleeping, did some minor cleaning up downstairs and later back to bed hehehe.. Not very much a while Diya wakes up and ask for her 'my pad' (well.. what else is new) and started browsing her favorite clips on you-tube. A little tired and I fell asleep beside her. She later woke me up and say "Mie, nak ashi.. egg.. fish.." And terus my mata terbeliak sekejap bila perasan eh, Diya dah boleh cakap lah! She can tell me what she wants for lunch or what she wants to eat! Macam bermimpi lah! She is already going to be 4 years old in September and finally I can hear her talk. Walaupun tak sempurna lagi tapi cukup lah sekadar I'm the mother paham aper yang dia nak. Then bila I fikir balik, a'ah la semalam pun during dinner she told me she wants soup! And sometimes she will tell me she wants pizza (which actually she meant pau kacang merah). Bila dia nak minum she now say "Mie, haus.." Instead of she used to shout for ayer! Ayer! ayer! Everytime she wants to drink. plus minus everything; Diya can actually talk now! Alhamdulillah.. Memang Diya is a bit late compare to other kids but she has improve alot. A whole lot! I am very proud of my kid here. Satu perasaan yang tak boleh nak describe. Hati tu rasa besar sangat bila Diya panggil, mintak nak makan nasi and I made her ikan masak kicap and she really makan nasi tu. Masa menyuapkan dia makan with my own hands tu rasa terharu sangat. Walau macm maner lapar myself sekali pun I can still wait and suap dia makan dulu untill she is done with her food.

I can remember last time masa I had to go through chemo and I was weak, my mom's maid had to suap diya makan, mandi and pakai kan baju tuk Diya and I got jelous! sometimes she even sleeps with her.. I cried in the room, but I know I had to let go Diya for a while, at least until I am strong enough to handle her again.. The moment I have more energy I will do all the things myself, I’ll bathe her, comb her hair, feed her and even play with her abit here and there. To think again, she was my strength when I was weak. I stayed strong for her.. Semua ni berlaku tanpa myself sedari.. Tak perasan langsung Diya is actually my strength yang datang dari maner pun I tak tau.. Alhamdulillah, dan I will always stay strong for her Insyaallah.

Lactose Intolerant and Dairy Overdose?

Oh dear... My Diya is not well.. Mula-mula sekali-dua jer dia cirit, tapi lama-lama makin kerap pulak. Sampai sehari 5 pampers berganti. Baru tukar satu dah kena ganti baru lagi sekali. I thought nak tunggu sehari dulu baru bawak pegi klinik pakar kanak-kanak kat depan tu tapi tak sampai hati pulak lah bila tengok Diya cirit-birit macam tu, so malam tu we went to see the doctor and get her checked.

I explained to the doctor that on Saturday Diya had pizza which that was her 1st pizza. We had the Cheesy Volcano Pizza cause we thought that would be FUN for Diya. Then the next day Diya asked for the same thing; pizza again! And so we went.. Earlier the day Diya had mushroom soup, cereal with milk for lunch and pizza for dinner. Later she had vanilla ice cream for desert. And everything started that midnight. One after another until myself pun penat nak bangun tengah malam lagi. Sebab terlalu kerap kena cuci Diay's private part tu naik rashes. Very red and I'm sure very painful lah. Diya has eczema and too much water will dehydrate her skin and trigger rashes, her body tempreture pun naik jugak sikit. I was worried quite much until I get to see the doctor. After the checkup doctor concluded that Diya has Lactose Intolerant and Dairy Overdose. she prescribed Diya with Probiotix from Bio-Life, ORS for her diarrhea and some salt water for energy, also flu and fever syrup for her runny nose and body temperature. Doctor told me not to worry because Diya is not dehydrated. She is very active playing and should be ok in a couple of days. I teringat masa kecik dulu Diya got admitted to the hospital due to the same reason only that time she was vomiting quite much, in fact the whole night! 3 days admitted with full drips. I wrote about this in my previous posting.

Today is her fourth day having diarrhea but she is a lot better now. Kurang sikit cirit-birit, gap from one another pun dah makin jarak. She has more energy, selera makan pun makin baik and dia lebih ceria main her toys! Alhamdulillah.. Bersyukur sangat. Lega jugak myself tak payah bangun tengah malam lagi hehehe... Lega betul rasanya dapat main ngan Diya like she always do.. Moga Allah panjangkan umur both myself and her so that she will grow to be anak yang solehah and myself pulak sihat nak membesarkan dia. Insyaallah..

Diya Has Flu

Morning all... Here i am writing my blog post while my kiddo is in school... Sitting at the coffee shop typing on Diya's "My Pad" (takperlah pinjam kejap while she is not around) trying my best to commit writing daily. Since recently the Ipad is around i hardly carry my laptop around anymore cause ipad is alot lighter and thinner even the battery last longer than laptops. I just need a note pad and write what ever i want later snyc to my computer although i prefer to have 'Pages' application as my note pad, till i can figure out how to download them. Still some familiar faces i see here especially the woman which i think runs an online business.. Kagum plak tengok akak tu hehehehe...

What i wanted to write to day is about my worries on Diya whose recently always cough and flu especially in the morning. Not that i worry so much on that but im mostly concern sending her to school like that. The other i read bout a friends tweet complaining a parent still send their kid to school although budak tu selsema.. And that concerns me.. Diya has runny nose almost every morning and light coughs too. Kalau i ikut tak hantar dia to school i am pretty sure that she will miss a lot and falls behind from other kids... Not that the school tak strict on having sick kids to school but i think they tolerate on kids yang tak teruk sangat flu kot? I thought that Diya always flu sebab dia pergi sekolah and berjangkit from other kids there but to think again kan i hardly see kids with runny nose there. I brought Diya to see her paed and they prescribe her with nasal spray, 2 in 1 flu/cough medicine still on and off she will get her flu. Maybe she is alergy to something that i am not aware off? Or maybe normal sinus? Or maybe Diya memang NORMAL macam tu hehe...

I just hope other parents will understand situation of people like me, not that i sengaja nak hantar 'a sick kid to school' but my baby is not sick, lets just hope she will recover from all this on her own naturally, just like her eczema case.. She is alot better now and less sensitive to food, preservative and colorings. Alhamdulillah.. And as for myself i will try to stop being a worrying mom all the time..

Funny Diya

Diya was so funny today.. She recently on her ‘I can do myself mommy’ mode; almost everything she wants to do on her own these days. She recently discovered You-tube on her Ipad and handles it smoothly. What happen was, she hates the ‘buffering’ every time you-tube downloading a movie. Some how she found the ‘volume’ button on the Ipad and thinks by pressing it will solve the buffering issue! And so with the most confident face she would flip her Ipad, press the volume button and press play again on the touch screen! Her face! I just couldn't help but to laugh (well I try to not in front of her lah)

These days not only her Ipad she wants to handle herself. Almost everything she wants to do herself. Like brushing her teeth. Once I helped her to brush instead she got angry and shouted! She wants to feed food herself, choose her clothes, throw rubbish in the dustbin and many more.. Every single time she does things herself she will give me that look! The confident look! I’m pretty sure soon she will tell me, “mumy tak payah la diya dah besar boleh buat sendiri” ... Once my baby, will always be my baby..

Diya Demam??

Alahai... Sikecik ni demam ker.. Lately ader lah jugak dia demam tapi tak lah merisaukan sangat. Lebih kurang dalam sehari dua je dan itu pun takder lah panas sgt.  Tapi malam tadi memang panas! Just by sleeping beside her I can feel hear body heat; bahang betul!
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   Nak kejut bangun rasa tak sampai hati pulak bila tengok dia tido lena macam tu. Shes not sweating tapi bahang badan dia memang terasa. Kalau tak kejut bangun makan ubat and basahkan kepala nanti bahaya pulak dibiarkan panas macam tu jer.. Should I just rush to the emergency nearby? Or don't panic and calm down.. ‘mau ka tak mau ka’ I kejut jugak dia bangun and suapkan ubat while her eyes are still closed! Later I took face towel, wet them with cold tap water and start to sponge her head and body.. It is already 3.30am and im still awake sponging her. Watching her in deep sleep, mengigau sikit-sikit and panas badan keeps me thinking.. Now all those scary thoughts came into mind.. What if anything happens to Diya? What will do? How will I live? Ish ish ish... I better not think to that extend. She should be ok lah, demam ‘nak pandai’ jer tu kot?

Mumy wish you fast recovery sayang, I will always be here next to you..

Our Short Vacation

Well.. Since myself never been to anywhere since I have Diya with me, so this one day I think why not I just take few days to myself and Diya and stay at the nearest hotel.. I dont need to go far lah to have the same ‘holiday’ feeling, plus I have always LOVE the city. So I took the smallest package they have here 3 days and 2 nights and pack our things for a short day mini vacation in the city. This place is cool.. I LOVE the city view from my room, room service is not that bad although I wonder how come front desk officers doesn't have perfect English like I always assume they would be. Well.. Im willing to close one eye lah bout that as long as they understands me and send all my needs here to the room!

Why I choose Eastin? Not like others who prefers beach view, green view etc.. Well, coz 1st of all it is not a plan, simply spontaneously to take a short time off for myself and Diya.. Spending time together.. I know Diya is always busy with her ‘my pad’ and myself stuck in front of my laptop all the time but this is just the way we spend our time together, we sit side by side with our preferred gadgets, watch/write/play them together.. Nothing wrong with that. I know, its not normal like how others spend quality time together but yes this is our own way.. Another reason why I like city hotels coz I just LOVE the city view, near to the malls, easy to find food and get anything we need, internet all the way for all of us and many more.. So I am not so green/beach kinda person.. Its OK.. Once in a while, cool jugak lah kalau nak bercuti kat pantai sana sini tapi still I think places with theme park, animal park which kiddies would definitely love suits me and my family more. What is the point kalau we all cuti but im not happy takder internet access, diya gets grumpy cant watch her favourites kan??? Different people has different ways of doing things I guess.. And maybe Diya is still too young to understand appreciating nature yet..

I brought Diya to the pool just now, not so big as I thought it would be, but nice and comfy enough.. Surprisingly diya prefers the bath tub than the pool! Sighhss... So next time I know lah to get a room with nice bathroom and maybe with a view from the bathroom heheheh... Room service is sooooo cool... I wish to have room service at home boleh tak?? Hahhaha... Menu looks so sedap! With just a call and wallah!! makanan pun sampai.. TV channels not bad, lama betul tak tgk hotel TV channels.. I can still remember when I was small I used to follow my mom whenever she has outstation job and would enjoy staying and dining in hotels. I love the video arcade they normally provide, but best of all I just cant wait to go back in the room and watch TV! Maybe masa tu belom ader astro and all kan so only kat hotel boleh watch international movies. Like my generation, You-Tube! Diya watches everything there.. That is why internet access is superbly important to us. Eh speaking bout internet access, pelik lah one room can onli register only ONE device for wifi! So I have to use my black berry to communicate with my world or teethring to my laptop for internet access.. But I think its ok, I can always write on my blank note pad, later copy paste jer and post dalam blog.

Talking bout my writing kan, I saw the latest mac air at starbucks yesterday, a guy was using it and Im soooo tempted to get one for myself, very thin, light, style and perfect for me to mobile and write anywhere I want.. Diya kedekut ‘mypad’ dia lah! Oh sue, pleaseeeee focus on your vacation heheheh..

Ok lah guys... Will write more in a separate post.. Kang boring pulak baca satu posting pajang lebar..

Diya And Her New Friend Tischa!

Diya has a new friend name Tischa! Macam maner Diya boleh kenal ngan tischa? Well.. They used to go to the same playgroup (Alimkids Taman Tun Dr Ismail) and from there us moms got to know each other. Since we both are fulltime mom with a small home business we then decided to meet more often and let out kids play together.. Ever since; these two little girls are inseparable. They play and eat together all the time. We mommies sometimes buy them the same clothes and toys too so they wont fight for the things they each have. While the kids play, we mommies talk more and got to know each other better.

During weekends we would bring the kids to swim or simply have ice cream at McDonalds and wait for them to finish playing at the playland.. Diya and Tischa LOVE to play together.. yes they fight sometimes but only for a while, they later good to play again.. Diya and Tischa now goes to school together although Tischa is already on a higher level but they still sit in the same class. We treat them like both our own daughters.. Alhamdulillah diya has a lovely friend to play and grow up with…

Diya At School

Diya ohhhh Diya... She finally started schooling! I should have written about this long time ago when she had her 1st day there... Some how I was so busy with the things to do for Diya to and totally forgotten to write, well most of the time I was more on delaying to write this blog.

During Diya's time at school, I will take this opportunity to lepaks and chill with myself or friends at the nearest cafes'... It is not so difficult to find one as her school is in the middle of a mall and starbucks is just a few steps away. We normally would chill at kopitiam or coffee shops and chat till it is time to pickup our kids from school. Cool ha? Not bad lah for a full-time mom like me. At least I get to have some time off from my kid and do all the stuff i have been wanting to do when shes at school hehe.. Sometimes I'll do light groceries shopping, or some other time I will just hang out at the cafes with my laptop and do my unfinished/delayed work. Neways, enough bout me.. Back to story bout Diya going to school heheheh...

On her 1st day of school she didn't cry at all. And of cause lah she has her friend Tischa with her there.. (will write bout Tischa in a Different entry yah) blur sikit lah in the morning and she refused to wear the new clothes I got for school. I made her egg sandwich and some cookies cereal, also Ribena drink in her cute Minnie Mouse lunch box set! I got her a matching Minnie mouse school bag too heheheh... Siapa lah yang tak excited bila anak dia nak pergi hari pertama sekolah kan??? I think I was too excited kot? Sighss.. I got her a set of purple top and jeans with a cool purple sleeveless jacket just in case she gets cold in the morning at school. But like I said, she just refuse to wear her new clothes early morning huuhuhuhu... It is okay, still hoping one day she would want to wear the jacket though.

I left her at school around 9.30am and suppose to fetch her back at 12 pm. Once I left all the scary thoughts came to mind.. She would cry and i would cry too! Thanx to Tisha's mom Misa who kept me company for the day and even the whole week! When I picked her up I expected she would her lungs out but instead and to my surprise she did not. Happily greet me with a huge smile, and keep saying 'Mumy I miss you'!!! So cute! The moment we all got into the car the kids started singing! I was shocked and overwhelmed to see Diya's improvement n just one day! Her 1st song was 'Watermelon' song. The melody is like 'Are You Sleeping Brother John' song. So cute when they sing!!! Since day one she went to school she learn to sing so much. Many and many songs she can sing now..

I think she is a much happier kid now. With her new school routine she gets better and improve a lot in most of her skill. Although she still haven’t spoken properly like she should at her age but I can see her improving and I finally can stop worrying now.

Alhamdulillah.

Visiting The Garden With Tischa

We had splendid day at The Gardens today! Diya, Tischa and her mom and myself. We had planned to go out today but haven’t decide on where to go exactly and later I thought why have the same routine and stil go the the same mall all the time kan? And so why not The Gardens..

It took us almost an hour to find a parking spot and finally once we found one, straight away we went to the mall. There were so many people there most probably because it’s the ‘back to school’ season and every body is like going shopping there.

First thing first; FOOD! We were so hungry as it was already 2pm. Went looking around and finally we decided to have lunch at The Garden Food Court. Kids share plain rice with soup and us moms had sizzling rice and noodle. They provide small kids area nearby the entrance that makes it easier for us to eat and kids play once they are done with their food.

Later we went window-shopping around and I saw this beautiful red wallet at Charles & Keith and dying to have it! But wait! Not yet… so we continue to walk around the mall until it was time for us to get back home before the traffic jam starts.

picture from C&K official website

I will come back to get u later dear…

Making Cekodok

This is one of Diya’s Favorite cekodok; cekodok lemak manis. Since I don’t know how to make this from scratch, I just got the instant package and surprisingly they taste so SEDAP!

Lately I started to have tea time for myself at home.. I make simple fried noodle ker, kuew teow ker, cekodok ker, sometimes I will buy bread at bakery shop and have them with coffee, tea or hot milo.. Not that I tak nak jaga my ‘makan’ but I feel that now I have Diya I should make her to feel homey and as how I get to have when I was small. I can still remember how my grandma used to make and cook everything for me from scratch! She even make me sedap roti canai!!!

I want diya to have all that. I want her to remember that ‘my mom used to make me this.. and that..’ my mom used to be a very busy career woman and doesn’t have much time for me when I was small. Most if the time it was maid, grandma n granddad sometimes and my aunt. So every time grandma is around she will always cook me all those fancy food and so will I do it for my Diya. I don’t ever want to go back into corporate world, I just want to raise my Diya.

Moga Di Izinkan Allah.

Hot Sunny Day At Home..

I just had to cook on that day! Macam maner nak keep Diya bz so I can do my work? And so I teringat kat bilik mandi tu ader small pool diya used to play with masa kecik-kecik. So I filled it up with water, soft plastic balls and let her play in there while I finish up all my cooking! Although the pool was small for her now but she still manage to have loads of FUN on the day. I made her some snacks; fries, egg sandwich and her favourite Ribena drink and wallah!!!! A very happy kid there hehe.

Still splash-splash in the pool, I managed to cook few dishes, clean and still have extra time to check emails n reply quotations. A combo baby-sitting for me; entertaining Diya and she finished her meal too, by the time she is done everything else settled already. Looking her at the small pool makes me think oh my! Poor kid, pool is too small for her.. So the next day I went to get her a bigger pool and she was and is much much happier hahahaha… Now her routine starts everyday by dipping herself in the pool first, have breakfast by the pool on her small rattan chair and after full satisfaction, it will be DVD time for her hehehehe… I let her watch her choice of cartoon and later she must watch her learning dvd pulak so kira fair lah kan?? Hehehe..

I better continue replying all my emails and finishup my quotations for potential customers!

Chow guys..

Iced Hazelnut Latte At Starbucks

Lama betul I tak minum coffee.. Today I read a friend’s status on Facebook about him having “Iced Hazelnut latte, double pump simple syrup” and the whole day I tak keruan dah thinking bout coffee at starbucks! Tak boleh jadi ni.. I took car keyes and drove off to the nearest starbucks outlet. Got myself grande size hazelnut iced latte and java chips frapuccino sekali gus! Hehe..


Earlier today I brought Diya to the new opened Toys R Us outlet here in Ikano Power Centre. Wow, quite big lah the place and man choices too. Diya really had FUN there today.. mumy jerk yang tak fun, habis duit kek dah huhuhuhuh… well its her 3rd year birthday and so I brought her so she can chose what she wants and she wanted almost EVERYTHING there.. kalau boleh superstore Toys R Us tu dia nak bawak balik sekali hahahah.. I just let her play there sampai dia puas lah.. kids..

She wants this.. She wants that… And finally she settled for a ‘Just Like Home Kitchen Set’. At the same time she wants ‘Hot Wheels’, Balloon Bubbles, Tricycle and also all kinds of party packs toys! Oh my… Diya… Happy, happy girl she is.

Happy 3rd Year Birthday Diya Zafeerah. Mumy loves you loads!

Mumy Can’t Do Magic Sayang..

Diya wants to fit all her small toys in the black container

Dia dah siap susun dalam bekas tuh.. tapi tak muat nak tutup..

Muka Diya dah mula lain macam...

Tak boleh tahan Diya pun nangis..

Dah habis nangis dia merajuk and paling ke lain hehehehe..

Asik cerita pasal masakan jer ni I nak cerita pasal Si Kecik Jantung Hatiku ni ha.. Alahai anakku.. Kenapa lah asik meragam jer sejak kebelakangan nih?? Tantrum all the time non-stop!


Lately Diya suka to gather all her small miniature toys and keep at a place where she finds it very safe and hidden. Problem is not everything fits to one another. Most of the time the chosen ‘bekas’ are too small to fit in her toys. I guess at this age she is already started to master her motor skills to handle smaller things or items and also mastering her mind to figure out where she can hide or keep her favorite toy. She always expect mommy to be able to fix things the way she wanted to.. Not all the time sayang.. Mumy cant do magic.. I am at my best to fulfill your needs( I guess at this age everything she wants is a NEED for her) but not all the time mumy can do it..

Ya Allah, Berikan lah ku lebih kesabaran untuk membesarkan anakku dan jadikan lah anakku Diya Zafeerah anak yang SOLEHAH..

Diya; Cuci-Cuci Services & Petite Cupcakes

Diya  ni kelakar lah… kita nak basuh kereta dia pun sibuk nak cuci jugak.. Ha! Tengok gaya dah macam cerita cuci-cuci services the series je kan?? Hehhehe…well, tu lah my baby Diya Zafeerah and at almost 3 years old.. very the ‘kepochi’ lah.. aper kita buat dia pun sibuk nak buat hehehe.. but again, good lah to see her like that.. means she’s is active and normal and not passives. Alhamdulillah, I am gifted with a beautiful and lovely baby girl and funny too! She is my strength.. I must be strong for her.

few days back I did some cupcakes for desert for my mom’s guests and Diya LOVES them! I made butter cupcakes with strawberry buttercream and double chocolate cupcakes with mocha buttercream. Diya went; Hmmm… Shedappp! Sampai 3 pieces Diya makan hari tu sampai myself naik risau coz she has eczema and too much of da cakes will definitely trigger her allergy.. so far soo good.. that night she slept well with mild scratching jer.

So today I decided to make another batch for her only that this time I made petite sizes! Perfect fit for her small n cute mouth heheheh.. sekali ngap jer dia makan! I also did thought her to lick the cream using her fingers hehehhehe… simply for the sake of having FUN lah! After all she is a small kid kan???